How being a slacker at home can make you a control freak at work

My wife is the engine that drives our family and our household economy.

She gets things done (as well as works a full time job) as far as house chores, a lot of the yard work, and she is the emotional glue that holds our family dynamic together.  I cook the occasional meal, but generate more work than I produce in the order of a messed up kitchen.  I mow the grass, but she has recently expressed interest in taking over that chore.

I feel bad about abdicating most home responsibilities to her.  (But let's face it, not TOO bad.)

She will occasionally ask me to do some things which I most always try to do and sometimes in a timely manner, but often neglect.

So.  I feel really guilty about asking her to help me do anything or ask for a favor in the household economy.  If I ask her to go to the store to get stamps to mail the bills that I'm on the verge of paying too late, I feel bad.

A colleague in ministry told me the other day he felt like I was being a control person about something.

It shocked me.  I have always prided myself in being a decentralized open source collaborator.

I realized perhaps that I have let my guilt of being a slacker at home makes me unwilling to ask others to do things in ministry (aka volunteer to offer presence and service).

I'm not sure exactly what to do about this, but I think I better go look at my to do list and quit feeling guilty about being a slacker at home.

Or quit being a slacker at home.

Or leave home at home.

Or... live my life authentically.

At home.  At work. And in ministry.