How being a slacker at home can make you a control freak at work

My wife is the engine that drives our family and our household economy.

She gets things done (as well as works a full time job) as far as house chores, a lot of the yard work, and she is the emotional glue that holds our family dynamic together.  I cook the occasional meal, but generate more work than I produce in the order of a messed up kitchen.  I mow the grass, but she has recently expressed interest in taking over that chore.

I feel bad about abdicating most home responsibilities to her.  (But let's face it, not TOO bad.)

She will occasionally ask me to do some things which I most always try to do and sometimes in a timely manner, but often neglect.

So.  I feel really guilty about asking her to help me do anything or ask for a favor in the household economy.  If I ask her to go to the store to get stamps to mail the bills that I'm on the verge of paying too late, I feel bad.

A colleague in ministry told me the other day he felt like I was being a control person about something.

It shocked me.  I have always prided myself in being a decentralized open source collaborator.

I realized perhaps that I have let my guilt of being a slacker at home makes me unwilling to ask others to do things in ministry (aka volunteer to offer presence and service).

I'm not sure exactly what to do about this, but I think I better go look at my to do list and quit feeling guilty about being a slacker at home.

Or quit being a slacker at home.

Or leave home at home.

Or... live my life authentically.

At home.  At work. And in ministry.

The desire to be a hero is killing Adam Smith's invisible hand thing

Ever see a sitcom where a prediction is made and then the protagonist doesn't believe it is going to happen, and sure enough before 30 minutes is over it happens.  Taxi had an episode like this and without thinking about it too much maybe you can think of some more.

God has some things going on.  The question is are we supposed to, like, make them happen or do we make sure to stay out of it so they will happen.

If you are a paid staff member of a church or organization that expects things to happen, it sure is easy to make what is supposed to happen (good numbers, right expenditure, proper amount of applause, good comments on the blog, etc.) happen.

Without any regard with what God will have happen... happen.

The pressure is incredible.

Adam Smith wrote or spoke about an invisible hand of self interest basically making the world go 'round.

My understanding of it has to do with something along the lines of God working for all things to work for good.

Are you willing to get out of the way of it?

How good good becomes may be a function of your willingness to be irrelevant.

Or we can spend more time being sufficiently mediocre.

Either way.