You can't always want what you get

I always thought the body of Christ concept had to deal with being happy with your station. You might be a middle toe, but you should be the best middle toe possible and don't regret the fact that you aren't an eye.

I'm starting to think it has more to do with overcoming your doubts and fears so you you can be the middle toe. It has also helped to consider there might not be one calling that comes to you and when you discern that calling, that's what you do. In the same way what you want isn't always your deepest desire (or most likely isn't).

It's not once a middle toe always a middle toe. It's being open to discovering your part for now and being on the look out for the next part you'll play. It's finding the simplicity on the other side of complexity. But that isn't a one time process either.

Service comes in seasons and seasons change.

Considering what part we play in service to God's mission most likely hasn't come to us because it's not what we really want.

So just get and keep moving. And pretty soon a fresh wind will blow.